So summer has officially started, and I've realized just how much I've abandoned, well, my life. School has drained me so much-- I was starting to forget who I am. But I'm back! And I'm not going to lie, a bit lonely. I've been reading these romance stories on Fictionpress.com (For anyone who loves to read, I'd suggest this site) and its semi-disappointing to realize that I've been so wrapped up in school I've let myself forget about living. Maybe this summer I'll get my life back. -D
I just had a four day weekend, but I'm exhausted. Today was interesting. And annoying. We had to evacuate the building; twice. Standing out in the cold for an hour is not my idea of a good day. It was all just blargh. It's getting harder and harder to ignore these feelings of inadequacy. I just want to quit. I'm not cut out for living. But then, there's those strange, rare good days, and things are okay for a little while. I miss being happy. But it's hard to be happy when you're surrounded by nothing but rain, clouds and people that, on a regular basis, make you want to go on a killing spree. I need out of here.
My cat is...unexplainable. He had his leg amputated on Friday, because he managed to break a very tiny little growth plate in his leg. So yeah.. I now have a three legged cat.
I got to stay home today. It was nice. I think I miss the summer. I keep thinking about how college is just around the corner, and how I really need to start choosing where I may want to go. I know what I want to do, and where I want to do it, but I don't know how I'm going to get there... I hate making decisions.
Thank god this day is almost over. It means I get away from my mom. Back to school, and back to my friends, my life. I hate weekends. But I will miss being able to sleep in... Oh well. For all of you reading this, goodnight and farewell.
